Yesterday was a very emotional day for me . My Ex rang and for the first time in many months, we had a long conversation. It felt good to hear his voice and to really talk......but is also felt unsettling. I was reminded of pendulums..... swinging back and forth...a reminder of things past and things future....yet the actual swinging of the pendulum is the Present.
It is the beginning of a new Season, my favourite, Autumn....and after a months-long Spring and Summer of eternal cold and grayness - in every way imaginable, perhaps "C's" call was the subtle swinging of the Pendulum towards a better future for me. He and I will not be a couple again...but, being able to talk and even laugh together is a positive move. We shared 17 years.....and though we have been apart 18 months, there is a lot of history - most of it good - one cannot erase that.
I have learned to "stand alone", live alone and function as an independant woman.... something I never did before in my life. I have said before, but it merits repeating, that I could not have done it without YOU....my "Blogging" Family.... you have been there for me, helping me all the way.
So, off I go to another "Aida" rehearsal this afternoon.... I am glad I will have something to keep my mind from wandering and re-living yesterday's conversation... it is already a Pendulum swing in the Past.....and I am moving forward to the Future - a stronger and hopefully, happier person.
Love,
♥ Robin ♥
