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Saturday, April 10, 2010

April 10th, 1984


Today, twenty six years ago, my Mother died. She was young and so was I - although she was ill and in hospital, she was expected to come home. When my Father and I kissed her goodnight and left the hospital, we never expected the call that came at 3:00 a.m. saying she had passed. Just like that. Gone.

She was beautiful, vibrant - she loved to laugh, to dance. She loved to travel and was able to realise her dreams by becoming a flight attendant... she visited every continent - except Antartica. She passed her love of travel on to me and we were blessed to have taken many trips together. Her favourite flowers were Lilies of the Valley and every time I see them or smell their sweet scent, I feel my mother close by me, looking out for me still. I love you so much Mummy...and still miss you every day. These flowers are for you.

Love,

Robin



10 comments:

  1. Your Mother and I share many things in common. Violets and Lilies of the Valley are my very favorite flowers, I have visited all continents, including a trip to Antarctica - and I love to dance, and I even dance with the puppies and they often look bewildered when I move in front of them but dance along to make me happy.

    I am so sorry about your Mother passing and your missing her so much. Mine died too when she was only 44 years old and I have lived without her longer than with her, and I still miss her. I will make sure to bring some lilies in when they bloom and put them in my personal altar in memory of your Mother.
    Thank you so much for stopping by today, I truly enjoy your visits. Hugs from here.

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  2. ah, and i see allegra is here. that alone is another gift among us.

    robin, this is sad. i am sorry. i wonder how the loss of renee, being such a part of her living and dying, affects the loss of your Mother. I hope it has helped in some healing way.

    it's always good to share with you, come laughs, come tears. :)

    love
    kj

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  3. Robin, Im so sorry you've been without your mom for so many years. it is so sad that she died so young, but i am glad she had so many pleasures in her life, the travel and you and your Dad. I love lilies of the valley very much myself, and once got through a hard time (pre-divorce trauma) smelling Muguet de Bois which was my fav perfume in high school too. Blessing to you today as you think of your mom.

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  4. I feel your loss Robin. I'm so sorry. How shocking to get a call like that, unable to say goodbye.
    Next month will be 25 years since my mum passed away. I feel it as deeply today as I did then. Lilacs were her favorite flower. (Another reason I love coming here and knowing you.)

    love and hugs and many blessings,
    (((♥)))
    Lolo

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  5. Allegra, you and my Mother DO share many things... and yes, she also danced with animals. (Another trait she gave me.) I am sorry that you lost your Mother so many years ago.... it's hard, isn't it? No matter how old or wise we are, there are times when one wants one's Mother to be there and just hug one.

    Thank you for understanding - and for visiting my blog.

    Love,

    ♥ Robin ♥


    Dear, Dear KJ,
    Thank you for commenting. Renee's brave struggle to live and her subsequent death had quite an effect on me... but she truly inspired me to get up, get out and keep living.
    I already know that Renee and my Mother have met and are friends...

    I want to share more LAUGHS with you though! The two of us have had enough tears!

    Love, Love,

    ♥ Robin ♥


    Suki, I know you can relate....you were such an Angel to your Mother....it is difficut to be the caregiver. Why am I NOT surprised that you wore that scent? It suits your gentle - but - passionate nature!

    Love to you, always,

    ♥ Robin ♥


    Dear Lo, how sad I am that you, too can truly relate to my sorrow. They say sorrows shape our being - and in your case, you have grown to be beautiful, talented, loving and courageous. You inspire me daily!

    Love,

    ♥ Robin ♥

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  6. Oh, sweetie, I am sorry I didn't remember, you know how bad i am about stuff like dates! I can feel your pain and I am sending a hge, big hug and lots of love.Love you. xoxo

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  7. Anne, I never expected you to remember this date, so don't feel badly.....Thank you for all your love - it means a lot to me.

    Hugs and more hugs,

    ♥ Robin ♥

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  8. my mom died 29 years ago, i was just 33 myself. but i didn't miss her as she was so cruel to me. when i told renee she understood. so i miss reneee more than i ever missed my mom. and that makes me even more sad. but as you said, we have all shed enough tears now.

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  9. Joss, I had no idea your early life was filled with such sadness and cruelty... my heart goes out to you.... I can see Renee understanding...how wonderful you found Renee!

    And how like our Renee to understand....

    Sending you many, many, MANY hugs m'dear.
    I am happy you are in my life!

    Love,

    ♥ Robin ♥

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  10. Hello, I'm so sorry to read this about your mother. It is a beautiful tribute to her and I am sure she is very proud of you for all you have turned out to be. xx

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